I did it. I created a blog. I need to force myself to write again, to quit talking to myself so much and start "talking" to others. Spending my days with young children leads to a lot of living inside my head. I make no claims that what I write here will be original or profound, but I do pledge to be honest. Most of the time. Names may be changed to protect the innocent.
So what do I want to be when I grow up? The title would more accurately have been "who I want to be when I grow up." I already AM something...several somethings. A wife, a mother, a daughter, a college graduate, a writer, an editor, blah, blah, blah. But those things aren't what I really mean.
What I want to be when I grow up...check out Ephesians 4, specifically verses 13-16: "...until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.
"Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming. Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is, Christ. From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work" (NIV).
I want to speak the truth in love when I grow up. I want to understand as much as I can about the truth, real real truth, and as much as I can about love, real real love. The older I get, the less grown-up I feel. The more I realize the reality I've spent years constructing is just a facade. I feel an urgency now to seek God's reality, so I can shoulder the yoke he's made for me instead of fruitlessly building my facade. I want truly to be transformed so that I accurately represent Christ here on earth.
This scares me so much...
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"People of faith are always afraid...except they are not."
Your thoughts - I can relate. This a.m. I read a quote, said of missionary David Brainerd, "he was swallowed by the Glory of God." I want that said of me.
It is easy to get caught up in what we are (esp. as mom's of young kids) and miss out on some of the working out of "who we are"
welcome to the blog world!
j
you have a blog - the thing i was pushing you to do - and you didn't even tell me about it????? i had to go and find it when i clicked on your profile. ouch. well, i guess i will forgive you this time, because well, my boss is a jewish carpenter and that is what he tells me to do. :-) i look forward to reading and will be back often.
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